Paper heart

Interesting as I am sitting cutting cardboard focusing on tapeing the edges clean tapeing them, peice by peice you are watching me. I am singing along to the radio trying not to notice, but after two tequilla my face is turning red. Your wife to be is with you and so is your famliy and yet, yet , yet. I still feel your gaze. And so you come over and open a beer for me. I am so full of energy I could burst. It seems to radiate forth from me-this beautiful confident energy. I am a queen and you know it. I am unobtainable and you know it. Alcohol makes you vulernable with your feelings your trying so desperately not to show. But your energy says it all. You want me because you know Im powerful. Because you know I'm not bound to you nor anyone or anything. You want me because you long to be free and unattached . And so, after a light meal of conversation, you drown yourself with more alchohol, to dilute the fact. THAT fact. You and the rest of this pathetic world, myself included. Truth is Id do the same. Truth is that Id be caught in the act too. Why dont we both just come clean and get this over with?It's my ego I have to deal with not you.